The Call for A New “Me”
I had a dream. I wanted to study abroad. On scholarship, if possible.
My mind was set to focus on that dream. I desired and perspired. Then, one day, the dream came true.
I was overjoyed and ignored the call, which grew louder and louder as time passed by. I spent the last 4-5 months ignoring the call, pretending nothing was happening. I was wrong. The call grew louder and louder and louder until I couldn’t bear it anymore.
It is a call for a new "Me". Not the "Me" that did quite well in high school. No one cares about that anymore (actually, probably no one ever did). Not the "Me" that graduated from the self-proclaimed best high school in town. The title ‘best high school in town’ is questionable at best anyway. (And ‘town’, well, how big is it compared to the world?) Not the "Me" that jumped with joy when she was told that she obtained a scholarship. No. No. No. (So what if you got a scholarship? It surely isn’t the whole point of your life, is it? [Surely it isn't!!!] What’s the greater purpose of your very existence, the objective of your efforts?)
It’s a call for someone that have been through all those things, but not just that; it is calling for someone who has new dreams, dreams for her to focus her mind on. Without dreams, she’s just like a walking zombie. Pretending to be well but feeling empty inside. Pretending to be well but doesn’t know where she’s heading to.
It’s a call for someone that have been through all those things, but not just that: it is calling for someone who has set new standards for herself. Not the old high school standards. Screw high school. University life is different. And so should I be: different.
This holiday, I’m going to put my life back into shape. I’m going to create new goals. Set new standards. Focus on new challenges.
I know I’m late. But it’s not too late… yet. If I take action now.
Anyway, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
on December 26th, 2007 at 12:40 pm
How, you think, have you been different now from the you back in high school?
on December 26th, 2007 at 8:29 pm
I’m older now. So far, that’s about the only difference.
And that’s exactly what I’m trying to figure out now actually.
How about you?
on January 4th, 2008 at 9:16 pm
hm.. sepertinya bakal ada tempelan kertas baru di lemari di kamar D212 Eusoff hall :P.
dari bacaan di atas, sepertinya sih bakal ada tempelan.. ga tau dech. Maklum, inggris ga ngerti..
Semangat Nya! Berjuanglah cucuku :D.
on February 16th, 2008 at 4:25 am
u called BSD as town? think again *kicked, smashed, punched by grandma
on March 12th, 2008 at 5:42 am
@nenek (aka novi)
haha cucu udah ga nempel2in kertas d situ lg nek,, abis ternyata ga pernah dibaca haha.. yg dbaca paling judulnya doang,,
@dessy
oh iya bener juga des.. harusnya bkn town, tp CITY.. ga kayak jakarta yg town hahahaha..